February 2009
I wonder if You still believe I am Beautiful.
Nobodys actaully told me i was pretty or beautiful or stunning in a while. Which is depressing because usually people tell me i have very beautiful eyes.
I Miss You.
So i basically think that this whole weekend has been a long experience, of nothingness. like i dont really know what to do anymore with my life, i dont commit to anything anymore, i wont even cut my hair because i dont want it to look bad or anything, i dont want to take the chance of messing it up somehow. Yet, i am commited to my relationship, its the hardest thing in the world though, long...
January 2009
I was already a step ahead; I didn’t trust anyone. Not for directions, not for rides, not for advice either. Sure, it sucked to be lost, but I long ago realized that I preferred it to depending on anyone else to get me where I needed to go. That was the thing about being alone, in theory or in principle. Whatever happened - good, bad or anywhere in between - it was always, if nothing else,...
devincastro:
Lykke Li - Tonight
My friend...
“There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no...”
– floatingupwards (via happynessruns) (via chippednails) (via speedofair)
Ugh.
Basically I think that i am going to cut my hair or something for some kind of change.
I’m sick of waiting for everything to come to me. I am sick of being scared to take a chance and end up loosing something else. I cant take anymore dissapointment, i cannot take anymore loss. but i am also un-willing to stand still anymore. time to work myself back up the latter and become more of the...
“That’s your personality. When something doesn’t work out, you want to just...”
– My Dad, when I said that I wanted to re-install my hard drive due to an error I keep getting. Insightful, indeed. You can learn a bit about yourself when you look at how you approach problems. (via havent-got-a-prayer)
“Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who...”
– Dale Carnegie (again, dedicating this to Mary…every post today is dedicated to Mary..) (via lickystickypicky)
How memories form, fade, and persist over time →
julie911:
Newly born brain cells, thousands of which are generated each day, help “time stamp” memories, according to a computer simulation by scientists at the Salk Institute for Biological Studies in La Jolla, California, and the University of Queensland in Australia. The research was published in the journal Neuron.
These cells do not record an exact, absolute date — such as January 28, 2009...
“Excellence is the result of caring more than others think is wise, risking more...”
– Unknown (via overflowing)
Understand.
I know that our relationship is on the rocks, and its getting to a point where its either going to be seek or swim. i know that long distance relationships are really hard, but i know that alot of stuff that i do makes it worse. I am glad that you told me you hate who i have become, because it made me relize that i too really hate what i have become. tonight i will start taking my old medicine...
devincastro:
The Byrds - Turn, Turn, Turn
This...
If you have a positive attitude and constantly strive to give your best effort, eventually you will overcome your immediate problems and find you are ready for greater challenges.
-Pat Riley
If it's something I've done...
julie911:
Something has caused me to be almost pain-free for the last 4 days, but I can’t figure out what. I didn’t even take any Tramadol during that time.
I don’t know if this is part of the unpredictable nature of this disease or it’s something I’ve done (or I’ve quit doing). I’m thinking hard, trying to remember anything that may have changed, but so far, nothing comes to mind.
What...
It’s time for them to realize I’m more than what meets their eyes I’m ripping away from their hypocrisy Gonna make them stop make them see
For the first time, there is no mercy in your eyes...
Maybe then when you’re grown up satisfied and strong Maybe then you will be happy, happy that you held on
"Lets this straight. I never wanted more than what...
If you only had 10 minutes left to live and you...
havent-got-a-prayer:
motionsensorsoundtrack:
what would you do?
(I’m not dying or anything, just curious)
Listen to a song that I found meaningful and maybe write a poem.
I would write a note to everyone that means something to me, and then write something special to that special someone. and then i would eat everything in sight and watch cartoons, and make sure i sleep.
Things That Won't Stop Bullets. →
stepliana:
Despite what movies would have you believe.
Wooden Doors. Most bullets will shred through these no problem.
Average Metal Doors. These things are generally not steel, plus they’re thin walled and hollow.
Tables. Wooden tables, definitely. Most metal tables are cheaply made and would be penetrated as well.
Cars. The only part of a car that will reliable stop a bullet is the engine....
OMGOSH.
I just ate a whole fricken hershy bar, my stomach doesnt feel very good, but omgosh i feel like going for a run, i cant concentrate and its a good thing, if i puke i am so praying to gosh that it doesnt hurt.
“What do you think you should do if you’re attacked by a bear? Play dead? No - that’s a lie promoted by the bears.”
Eugene Mirman
Snake (zodiac)
People born in the year of the snake are considered mysterious, grant, wise and enchanting. He or she can become an Ambassador, a Mediator or a talented musician. Such a person is a thinker who also likes to live well; affluence. The Snake person loves books, music, clothes, fine food and wine; but with all their fondness for the finer things in life, their innate grace and elegance gives them a...
lhh:
lickystickypicky:
I am so desperately nervous right now. I almost feel I am not in this body. I seriously am afraid I might have a heart attack.
Help.
*HUGSHUGSHUGSHUGS*
[via gymnasticalcupcake] Awe. I might be able to help, i have anxiety and panic attacks often. What the matter, or what was the matter? *hug*
“He believes, I think, from the depths of his soul that he is all that he says he...”
– NBC’s Amy Robach, on her interview with IL Gov. Blagojevich, “Morning Joe,” MSNBC, 1/26. (via notthatkindagay)
Bahhaha
Oh sweet summer.
How I long for you.
WatchJo Koy. Bring some laughter into your life.
“You go through hard times either way. When you’re in love, you’re just going...”
– Me (via havent-got-a-prayer)
Everything is going to be okay. I find it hard to say that myself, but i truley believe everything will be okay for you.
Whats everyones story..
notbeingserious:
gymnasticalcupcake:
I read alot of differnt stuff, like people going to the doctor, and people having problems.. i was just wondering. whats everyones story?
By story u mean ppl with Depression or what?
Just anything..
Whats everyones story..
I read alot of differnt stuff, like people going to the doctor, and people having problems.. i was just wondering. whats everyones story?
A piece of good news.
havent-got-a-prayer:
When I first got clean back in August, I used to get these really bad panic attacks. It was the worst, most all-consuming feeling. I haven’t had a panic attack in a little over a month now.
I have panic attacks alot. i actually have had panic attacks and agraphobia like my entire life, i just had a relapse with them in november. :[ which is probley another reason i am...
